By now you must have heard the “news” of my diagnosis. I won’t go into the details here, you can see what it is at facebook.com/nushkie. I would really prefer not to even name it anymore if I can help it. Neil Simon wrote a hilarious play called “Brighton Beach Memoirs,” in which the characters wouldn’t say the word out of superstition. But is it really superstition? Or is there something to be said about not repeating that which you do not wish to manifest or continue to manifest? If you are familiar with the Old Testament, you know that “G-d said,” this that and the other thing….and it was so.
From my point of view, we are all part of the creative force in the universe, which we call G-d, Buddha, Allah, Jesus, etc. I like to think of it as Infinite Wisdom or Infinite Source…and it runs through us, as us and is partly, well, us. From a purely scientific perspective, we’ve got atoms and electrons spinning around, dark matter, which is all the stuff between atoms that no one seems to be able to figure out. We’ve got radio waves that cause things to vibrate, cells which recreate themselves every three months or so, and we’ve got our very powerful minds.
So what does all this have to do with my “diagnosis”? I see it as all the stuff I forgot. I went to sleep on autopilot, working, sleeping, getting my daughter off to school, working, sleeping, saying Hi to my husband, working, making lunch, rushing off to beat the morning bell, eating, and eating and eating….and brewing with a sort of intangible resentment just under the skin! For though I love my daughter and husband and my work and though I adore my customers and found that all their beautiful notes kept me inspired to create on the outside, something in me was not expressing itself as my most full me. I wasn’t enjoying life.
Then February 6 came along…the day I went for an ultrasound. I had a day of utter and complete shock, fear, self-loathing, blame, anger and tears. It was like the dam, which had been keeping my emotions at bay all year, for years! had finally been unlocked and the flood began.
Then about 3 days later, after the water dried, I had an epiphany. I could choose to live in joy no matter what. I could go back to my true beliefs about how the world operates and could decide that February 6th was a very loud wake up call, and that I was in an amazing state of transformation for the better. I realized that I had been vibrating at a frequency which aligned itself with illness and a few other unsavory concepts, and that I needed to up the ante with myself and become who I really am.
I researched many therapies, including a few that made me so uncomfortable I cannot mention them! Finally I happened onto an alternative option: IPT…Insulin Potentiated Therapy combined an insane amount of testing to see what works with my biochemistry, what environmental elements are in my blood and affecting me, etc….with a whole host of immune boosters, Qi Gong, exercise, and a new way of thinking.
And though just about everything is very expensive, and speaks a strange language insurance companies do not understand, the thinking part was free and all mine! This was something I could own no matter what. So, I used my thinking to change my perspective and see this all as a gift — An amazing gift which I could use not only to help myself, but hopefully, by example to help others.
Yes, we could use some financial help from some “Angels.” So, if you wish, please click the icon below. In return, I would love to send you a wee fairy thank you gift!
But aside from the daunting aspect of the finances, the thought remains. This is a gift. As I have shared with many of you, I have never felt better in my life. And I am sure the joy I hold in my heart, the gratitude which is saturating every cell in my body, the love I have for everyone, every event, every mistake, every achievement in my life, the acceptance of myself no matter what….all these positive feelings have raised my vibrational frequency on our dear earth. My body cannot help but heal. And my hope is that the joy I feel on this new adventure will spread to you and you and you and you…and that we will all enjoy the, well, joy together!
Thank you for joining me for the ride! Just your being here today is a gift in and of itself!
Sending many blessings of love, light and joy to you and your families!